I was the one he trusted. I was the one he loved, the only one who believed him, even when his own mother had locked him up and thrown away the key.
And now, I was going to pass down the white tiled hallway, knock on his doctor’s office door, slam his secret notebook on her desk and make her read it, make her understand what he was hiding, make her see what only I had seen.
April won’t let Jonah go without a fight.
He’s her boyfriend—her best friend. She’ll do anything to keep him safe. But as Jonah slips into a dark depression, trying to escape the traumatic past that haunts him, April is torn. To protect Jonah, she risks losing everything: family, friends, an opportunity to attend a prestigious music school. How much must she sacrifice? And will her voice be loud enough to drown out the dissenters—and the ones in his head?
That blurb makes this book sound completely different and it kind of annoys me. It makes it sound like April is the only person who knows about Jonah's issues, but everyone knows about them, but they're all too in denial about it to do anything. I think that if the blurb wasn't so far off the book, and I actually knew what I was getting myself into, I might have enjoyed this book more. But alas, the blurb is crap and therefore, I thought the book was pretty average.
This book was just OK. To be honest, I didn't really like it, and the more I think about it the less I am liking it. At first I liked the main characters but then some things happened and it just got too ridiculous and unbelievable for my liking. I think it does discuss a very important topic, on that seems to have become quite popular in YA lately and that is mental illness. At first I didn't know how accurate it was but I have been told since that it was pretty accurate in terms of the mental illness itself. The other stuff, not so much. If you want to read a book about a 15 year old know it all in a completely unrealistic relationship in unrealistic circumstances, this book might be for you. But honestly, I do think that there are other books out there that can do a better job of portraying mental illness and do it in a more realistic way. So overall, I wouldn't recommend this, however this is my opinion so feel free to take it with a grain of salt.
And that is where the non-spoilery review ends and the somewhat spoilery review starts. You've been warned.
There were quite a few things I didn't like about this book. Firstly, I really did not feel like this book, and what actually happened in this book was very realistic considering the age of the characters. I'm not talking about the mental illness itself, but of how everyone was reacting to this mental illness. April who was only 15 mind you, seems to think that she can cure Jonah's SCHIZOPHRENIA. She acts like such a immature child who thinks she knows it all, and gets away with it because the parents just let her do whatever she wants. For example, when Jonah first gets admitted into hospital, her mother actually says she isn't allowed to go visit him, but then she visits him daily and the mother doesn't say a thing.
My other thing was I really didn't like Jonah's mother. In the blurb it says that she locks him up in his room or something along those lines, but in reality, she knows exactly what's going on yet she doesn't do anything about it, and then complains about how she was too late.
Also, what sort of doctor would let some kids 15 year old BOYFRIEND sit in on a meeting discussing CONFIDENTIAL information. None that I want to go to that's for sure. And this happened more than once in the book. I understand that Jonah wouldn't leave unless he knew she was in there, but they could have easily sent her out of the room once he was gone. It might be understandable if they had been in a relationship for more than a few weeks, or if they were engaged or something but no, it's just his 15 year old girlfriend who is absolutely clueless to everything. So in this meeting, the doctor actually tells the mother (and the girlfriend) his suspicions that her son is having hallucinations and whatever else it was (I can't remember). And what really annoyed me, was the fact that the girlfriend knew, the mother knew, yet they told the doctor to shove it and that they didn't want his help. instead they take him home because they can help him better than any doctor could. Honestly, if your son was acting the way Jonah was acting, thinking that the government is out to get him, yelling to himself all the time, hearing things no one else can hear, would you not get him help? and when a doctor actually tells you what is wrong, would you not DO SOMETHING?! I honestly cannot get over that, and I don't know if people in these situations actually do this, but I really hope not.
The one thing I did like about this whole book, was the ending. I really liked how it didn't end in a happily ever after, and that was the most realistic thing in this whole book. After he tried to commit suicide and he got the new therapist that was actually helping him, the book got way better. And it was frustrating because when he was starting to get better, you could almost feel how much April resented it. So I was so happy when he broke up with her (and not just because I didn't like her).
And that's all I have to say. I'm still pretty annoyed at this book. I don't regret reading it, but I definitely would not read it again.
Publisher: Sourcebooks Fire
Format: eBook, 336 pages
Genre: YA Contemporary
Acquired from: iBooks
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